I shall sum out a little of my love and life~ just saying, recording purpose.
No names shall be mentioned though. (it will be a little emo-ish, don't say I didn't give my warning, readers)

Primary school, happiest life of all
Met this boy in primary 3
He was my classmate, my first little love.
My friends like him too, little handsome.
I liked him because he was a little gentleman with good sense of humour
He can make people happy with his enticing smile.
I was a little nerd girl, but I guessed he chose me as a little lovey dovey too
We shared little jokes, sent each other little love letters of our lives.
This lasted from P3 to P6.
P3, I was the same classs as him
P4, I was the same chinese class as him
P5 & P6, we were in the same class again
However, during P4, I started to become a little jealous because I took his friendliness as flirting.
So during P5 & P6, we barely talked.
During PSLE, I wished I was the same secondary school as him.
But, to the second thought, I think.. better not..
I knew he watched some adult films, so I was somewhat disgusted by his acts then.
I guess, that was when he went astray, started smoking and drinking and stuff.

Secondary school, still okay I guess
The beginning was ups and downs.
The beginning of it was the darkest moments of my school life.
I was backstabbed, hurted.
I guess I do have some stuffs I did wrong, but I was deeply hurted that I crawled into my comfort zone.
It was when frankies sisters came along.
Slowly, as time past, I came out of the darkness and came into light.
We went home together, studied together and played together.
But, dark cloud came in again, and this time, 3 of us were involved..
Gossips all around, bitching and stuff.
The type of feeling, I would never forget.
Somehow through the 3 years we managed to pass.
One of us did not made it..
She was all alone, and I looked at her in despair.
I don't know how to help, other than giving comforting words.
I know she's down, I know, because it was the feeling of lost.
Overtime, she became stronger, though I can still feel sadness from her.
She had her own aim, but yet avoided us for a period of time.
Till today, I guess she was trying to hide her feeling of lost and despair.
It must have hurted alot..

Slowly, ending secondary school taking our O level results.
My results went downhil, was not as expected.
I cried and cried and cried.
But, I was lucky to have my frankies sister around.
Also not forgetting my sister who gave the most comforting word from her own experience.
I guess that was a new turning point God gave me.

However, I'm still struggling with life.
I forgot what is happiness.
Pressures, stress, influences, competition everywhere, not forgetting in poly life.
I'm still stucked, oh Lord Jesus.

Please, release me, someone?